Notes on manifestation
Okay so I have a fun little story. The last few months I have been DEEP in intentional manifestation work, and just in the last week or so I’ve really been contemplating and aware of the two “tests” of faith and how they’re showing up in my life right now: the delay and the “almost it” tests.
The delay is exactly what it sounds like, you say the prayer, set the intention but the thing doesn't arrive immediately, or when you think it should. It’s an opportunity for faith to wobble, to stop believing that you get to have what you desire. The “almost it” or “close enough” test is when you’ve been holding a clear intention and something arrives that is almost it. It has 90% of what you asked for, or maybe its what you asked for on paper but it just feels slightly… off. This one is a test of your belief that you truly get to have exactly what you ordered.
Yesterday, I woke up crabby. Like, really crabby. I did all the right things to manage the cortisol, all the self compassion talk and reminding myself this is ok, you’re allowed to have bad days, yada yada, but still just could not shake it.
You may recall a bit ago, I shared an Instagram story about manifesting getting invited to more parties, as my broader intention for this season of my life is more FUN. And its going pretty well, and yesterday was another party! And when I got the invite, it felt good, it felt in alignment. But my mood was so lousy I considered not going.. Then I remembered I literally asked for this.
So I went, alone.
It was a housewarming. The house is stunning, the neighborhood is gorgeous. I don’t know anyone there aside from the host who is fully occupied in kitchen chaos mode. Most people are my parent's age. I feel awkward and am tempted to hide in a corner but again, I remember that I asked for this. And I trust my prayers. So I just start introducing myself to people. “Hi, I’m Caili.”
Many easy, lovely conversations ensue. Then, I meet one of the host’s neighbors, a retired art teacher. Somehow, within four minutes of meeting, she is holding my hand and taking me on a walk to tell me about her house.
Her and her husband had wanted to get into the neighborhood and been waiting years for a house to go on the market. During that time, she would go to the neighborhood multiple times a week and take walks there (something I also did when manifesting my old apartment). Finally one popped up for sale, and put an offer in immediately. Shortly after, she was in the home’s living room, pen in hand to sign for the purchase. She looked at her sister and said, “I can’t do this. I hate this house.” (Will confirm, it was ugly. Not a vibe.)
Naturally her realtor wanted to strangle her but within days the house NEXT DOOR- a stunning, stone house with a sun room and charming little garden goes on the market. Guess where she lives now?
I couldn’t help but feel like the Universe was winking at me in that moment, affirming back to me what I already know to be true. When you ask for the thing, you get to have it and love it. You do not have to settle for close enough.
And, when you ask to be invited to parties… you have to go to the parties.
